Alright! The exams are over and done with. Float camp is over and done with. Next up, a trip to Taiwan with Blk 5 girls!! Can’t wait to see them!! ^.^ Although it’s been only one week, I dare say I miss them already!

As usual, exams were grueling and tough. It feels worse than a roller coaster. A roller coaster ride may be over within seconds, but exams can last as long as a month. Tough, but I survived. We survived, I should say. Although many a times, we emerge from the examination hall stunned, petrified, or even pissed with our stupid minds, but still we did not let this deter us from keeping our minds focused. Of course, that is discounting the fact that we all have our buffer periods! Nevertheless, we all did well.

Okay, I know it would sound silly to say that it matters not what our results are, but I dare say that everyone would agree that it’s over and done with, ‘Keep Looking Forward!’ I would say.

Thank you, everyone, for supporting me, and constantly encouraging me! ^.^
Thanks Liping!!
Thanks Thanks Yuko!!
And many thanks to Naren.

And to you, yup! Thanks thanks! Although I never did tell you what was bothering me, but your care and concern really touched me. I’m sure everything would be fine between you and her. Don’t worry too much! Look at this from another angle. Treat this as a test for the love you guys have for each other. If you guys can overcome this, I dare say you guys might be able to overcome anything, and who knows? It might just strengthen the love between you and her. Rest assured, I will pray for you and her. =D

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I’m now home at last. =)

I feel as though I’m taking a lot of things for granted. I know my parents love me. I know my brother love me, but it’s just, I don’t know, I somehow feel I don’t repay them. The little gestures they do sometimes really leave me speechless. For example, my parents constantly asking me what do I want to eat, or my dad looking at me, smiling for no reason, caressing my cheek as I sit next to him in the car, or my brother sleeping in the family hall with me just because my bed has been occupied by clothes. Somehow, I feel I don’t deserve their love. It’s just like how I feel I don’t deserve God’s love.

Haiz.

Nonetheless, I will spend as much time as I can with them this weekend! And the weeks to come, after my Taiwan trip!

Oh, sometimes I really hate myself for neglecting the ones I love.

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Recently, the earthquake and the typhoon that devastated China and Myanmar respectively have indeed left a mark in the heart of people no one would have thought it would. It’s just like another Tsunami albeit on a smaller scale.

Perhaps the fact that Myanmar is sort of disallowing foreign aid into their country is disturbing people. I guess they must have their reasons for doing this. Are they scared that their culture would be greatly influenced by that of foreigners? Or are they just stubborn, refusing to admit defeat? Are they trying to prove something?

I wouldn’t say I know anything seeing the fact that I have not really followed the news. Perhaps it’s just a political thing. I don’t know.

I guess I’m more perturbed by the earthquake in China. It’s really sad to see so many people suffering. I don’t know, but it reminds me of the scenes I saw in Sri Lanka. It reminds me of the lady who showed us a picture of her entire family. Yup! She showed us a picture with 11 coffins in them. Shocking, but it was reality.

Sometimes, I feel so helpless. It’s like I cannot do anything. I wanted to be a nurse so that I can do so much more! I believed so strongly that God gave me such a wonderful life not so I can just thank him for it, but rather help others who are not as fortunate.

Okay, I guess some of you will now say, but you can help even if you don’t be a nurse! I know. I do know. I just feel that being a nurse puts me on an easier platform to do what I want. Then some of you will ask, then what of a social worker? Haha! Okay. Okay, I did consider that too, but I like nursing better. =X Oops.

I agree I’m naïve sometimes, only scratching things on the surface and not looking at things deeper. I agree that I’m stubborn, sticking so stupidly to things I feel, to things I want, to things I believe in, or things just to spite people. I agree that I have many flaws, perhaps many many that I have yet to see or discover.

Then again, Life is for us to discover things. Curiosity is part of humans, I feel. It is not instilled. Somehow, I feel that as we grow older, we lose this curiosity that we have when we were young. It’s like conformity have forced us not to want to know more. It has forced perceptions into our minds. It has formed stereotypical ideas of people into our minds. Quite a pity.

Maybe that’s why I’m weird. I refuse to conform – stubbornness at its best. Haha.

Oh yeah, great things are always achieved by weird people! So, if people think that you’re weird and ostracize you, not to worry, for all you know, you might just achieve something great; something big. Perhaps something that will leave a mark in the hearts of many. =)

Fret not. Don’t feel sad. Oh, but it does not hurt to try and relate to people. It will make life easier. =D

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As I’m writing this, a cockroach is crawling beside me. Hehe. As long as the cockroach does not touch me, I’m okay. =D Thank goodness, I’m not going to be sleeping in this room. Otherwise, I will definitely want it to be captured and thrown out of the house!