Just some more picture to feast upon!!

Egypt was fun!
It was an interesting experience, I must say.
An eye-opener indeed!! ^.^

Why Egypt?
Just 'cause it's exotic!! Different! Unique!!

Hehe!
It is definitely a country rich in history!
I simple cannot comprehend the ingenious minds of the ancient Egyptians. The precision in calculations and the amount of work required to build such amazing feats simply leaves me dumbfounded!!

I'm also baffled as to how people can work so hard for someone whom they think is the son of God! I mean, they were literally treated as slaves by the Kings, but yet they willingly sacrifice so much for them!

It's strange, the way people think, and the way people act.

Sometimes though, I wonder, was life easier then? They did not have to think so much did they? They were more or less restricted by the 'caste' system, weren't they? Sure, they had to slog under the scorching hot sun and be subjected to punishments should they even so much as take a break, but with less decisions to make, do you think they were happier?

Somehow, I highly doubt that they were happier. Sure, there is a possibility that they are unhappy with what they are going through, but it's still amazing that there was no uprising or anything. I mean, if the entire country were to go against the King, surely, it wouldn't be that hard to gain that freedom?

Or possibly, were they contented with being told what to do? After all, with less decisions to make, comes lesser responsibility? That way, whenever things go wrong, there is always someone else to place the blame on? After all, the decision wasn't made by you, was it?

Maybe that's why I hate to make decisions. And, I really have to change. Much as I hate making decisions, decision-making is an important skill to survive in society now.

ARGH!

BUCK UP, Clara!

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After the last day of exams, I had to hurriedly pack, and then be shipped off to Egypt. During the entire Egypt trip, I had a lot to think. Not that I want to, but during the long hours on the bus, it was hard not to think.

Blame it on my hyper-active mind. Sometimes, I really hate it. Why can't it think of more useful things like the properties of an emulsifying agent or something, or the equation of the viscosity of a mixture?!

zZz..

Oh wells. Anyway, a lot of thinking has been done, and you know what? There was no conclusion. I was, and am still stuck in Limbo Land! AHH!!

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I am such a lousy person.
Kind?
Understanding?
Hah!

I am totally neither of those.
Ask around, and you will know how many people there are out there who are disappointed at me. In me.

I am not a nice person really.

I try so much to help others, but I don't let others help me.
I have closed so many doors, locked too many, and I have lost the keys to those doors.

Everytime something happens, another door slams shut, adding to the many layers of already firmly shut doors, adding to the pile of lost keys somewhere in the darkness of the abyss.

Why am I like that?
I would really like to know why too.
I don't like the way I am, but it takes soooo much courage to just open that one door.

I'm so scared.
I'm scared that what I am will just distant me away from everyone else.
I'm scared that those doors will never open.
I'm scared that more doors will be slammed.

I'm trying.
Trying so hard to find those keys.
Trying so hard to open those doors.

But it's so difficult.
Just so difficult.
Just when one door opens, another gets slammed.
It's so difficult.

I'm scared.
Scared that I will never get those doors opened.

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I cry
because I'm useless.

I cry
because I have caused much disappointments in too many people.

I cry
because I have failed to achieve anything.

I cry
because I have come to the realisation that I'm so vulnerable.

I cry
because I detest myself for crying.

I cry
because I hate myself for who I am.

I cry
because I'm lost.

I cry
because I have let you down.

I shall let the pictures do the talking!!