Was my last post that long ago? I thought I posted more.. Oh wells. When you start working, everything sorts of get lost in time. In 6 weeks time, I'll be getting my license. I would be a full fledge pharmacist. Why doesn't that bring me joy? The road has been so long and arduous yet being a pharmacist is that glorious and neither is it well paid either. Sometimes, I wonder what did I do in the last 5 years. If I were to give up being a pharmacist, would it all be for nought? sometimes, I feel that all boys/guys are the same. They are all self centered to a certain degree. Or maybe I just pamper them too much. Or maybe I'm juste a bitch. Whatever. Life is all about being caught in the rat race. This is not life. This is running the race. There is no passion to speak of, for it gets you nowhere. I will never have children for they would end up getting caught in the rat race as well. I wanna die young. I wanna die when I'm the happiest.