"Heck a little,
Smile a little,
Laugh a little.

Eat more,
Sleep more,
and Life's a little happier."

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After float, we cleaned up a little, but the mess we created was amazing. Halfway through, nearly everyone was 3/4 dead if not dead. As such, everyone stopped and decided to take the much needed sleep which we lacked.

The next day, I had to rush home since my dad said that a 21st birthday cannot be wasted, which I begged to differ. Nonetheless, we compromised. It would just be a dinner amongst our relatives. Cousins who were in town came and we watched the National day parade together while eatin, and talking round the dinning table. It wasn't much different from a normal family gathering, but the warmth and familiarity beats any 21st birthday party. =)

Everyone is always amazed at how close-knitted my relatives are, and here I thought it was the norm with other families, which I've realised that it's not always the case. Nonetheless, though each family is busy with their own affairs, we still made time to gather for dinner once in a while, instead of just meeting up during Christmas and Chinese New Year. I guess that extra bit of effort helped.

On my actual birthday, it was but another ordinary day, but yet felt special all the same. Everything I did was like any other day. Nothing special happened. No surprise. No shock. No present. Nothing. I guess once a day turned special, nothing else will beat that special day. I guess I had my special day a long time ago, and for anyone to beat that special day, well, let's just say that it's not very easy. Although I do dream of that day every now and then, and secretly hope for another such day, but what matters now is the present, and I really should stop living in the past. Although it was an ordinary day, the company was extra-ordinary. It was sweet, I guess, for sacrificing one whole day. ^.^

Back in hall, the floaters celebrated my b'day. =) Thanks a lot, guys! Although you guys walked right past my room countless number of times, it really made me laugh. Haha. Thanks thanks!

On another random day, we wanted to cut cake, but I had to buy my own cake, which was kind of sad, but it doesnt really matter since I was the one who wanted to cut the cake, which didn't really feel all that special after all. I guess it was too long drawn, and the zeal and enthusiasm sort of faded. The present was indeed a surprise though! Love it so so much! =D I wear it all the time now! Yeah!

And, just last weekend, a simple dinner was made special! I love their present!! It's oh-my-goodness so sweet! The effort spent is WOW. Simply love it. I love my friends. They never forget, and despite how busy I get, they are always so understanding. =) Thanks, guys! Oh, and they are always here for RH concert. The only friends I ask who always turn up no matter what. =)

Thus, that was my birthday - not any big fan fare or b'day party, but just individual time spent with most of the people I cherish.

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School's going well. Dying as usual, but that's not unusual, so it's hardly worth mentioning. Parents are putting more and more pressure, which is making the situation a little more tricky. Somehow, I keep thinking about what they have planned in mind for me whenever I study which is not good because I can't seem to concentrate! Grrr..

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A perfect day:

1. No one is tired
2. Heading to somewhere special
3. Everyone is happy

That's all. So simple, yet so difficult.
Why?

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To do something you like, or to do something that will benefit you.
Tough choice.

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Haha! I think you might never get to read this since you don't ever read my blog, but nonetheless, Thanks, darling, for being there for me throughout the past one year. ^.^
So yeah.
That's all.
=P
Hehe.

Yeah.

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"When he's angry, he's really fierce and terrifying,
but when he's nice, he's... just really sweet."

"It's over. Stop thinking about it."

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And so, Rag day came and went.

And no, I did not quit. How can I quit? That'll be totally irresponsible. No. I couldn't quit. However, I do not deny that I did things for the sake of doing it. What can I do?

And the stupid leader was totally clueless, and seriously CANNOT manage anything at all. Everything is always so disorganised and we seemed to be doing things without an aim."So what's the aim of float? Process or end-product?" He did the worst thing by saying both. HELLO! AIM = 1 AIM. Of course, having both ultimately is like the icing of the cake, but as the leader, you need to give your members some goal! Worse still, by saying you will have to think yourself your purpose in float. =.= Like WTH.

Ultimately, what did we win? Least cost award. How? Underhand means. Lying. We hardly deserved that award.

Oh well, it's over. A horrendous float experience, it was. Can't blame anyone I guess. I was to blame as well. My heart was not there sometimes as I serious questioned what I was doing, spending hours in the comm hall, not sleeping; mindlessly doing, cutting, pasting...

The day before rag day, TK showed everyone a video and what do you know, I wasn't in it. When people came around to ask me afterwards, what am I to say? I wasn't the one who made the FREAKING video for goodness sake! I totally didn't feel like doing float from that moment on. Maybe it's çause of the lack of sleep or something, I don't know. I really did not feel like going to SRC.

I felt like just putting everything down and just stop work there and then; to just head back to my room and just sleep; to not care about something that doesn't justify the hours I have put in. But I had to continue. What to do? Heads are there for a reason. Still, it was a crucial moment and to realise that I'm not in, well, it was a huge blow I guess, but what can I say? I have no right to say anything.

Eat my words and work on through the night.

Well, it's over and done with as many would say, and I'm glad that it's over.
Feels kind of lost right now after days of not sleeping.

Shall update on my b'day soon, I guess. =)