What an eventful day! Shuttling from one place to another, she was kept on her feet the whole day. One moment she would be in the North, the next moment she would be in th East. Racing against time became her number one priority.
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"Listen everyone. I feel that for girls, it is best to be attached only in the second year of university. Because by then, she would be exposed to the different kind of guys and she would also be wiser in choosing a guy. Also, by being attached now, she would be restricting herself. In future, if a better guy comes along, she would not know if she should stay, or leave..."
After constant pestering from her class for her form teacher to disclose all the juicy details about her first love, her form teacher finally relented. However, before coming to the main point, she lapsed into a motherly mode, advising people not to get attached at this tender age. It was repetitive and sounded a little naggy. What everyone wanted to hear was her life story, not her wise sayings. However, what she said does makes sense, she thought.
She definitely did not want to restrict herself. Most importantly, she does not want to hurt anyone. After thinking through, she realised there are numerous reasons why she does not want to commit herself.
1) She did not know if he really liked her, or he only liked her just because she was there for him during his lowest moment. It was really confusing. She was afraid it was only a short term kind of liking.
2) "What if i say i don't like you. What will you do?" she asked one day hesitantly. She knew this would hurt him, but she just had to know. Yes, she was being unthoughtful. She was mean. Even cruel perhaps, but she just had to know. She is terribly sorry for any harm done.
"If you don't like me, then i'll stop disturbing you," was the reply.
Does that mean he does not really like her? It was mind-boggling. So he's gonna give up like that? That means he does not like her, right? Or not.
3) She does not know if she likes him in the first place! Yes, she admits, she looks forward to his smses. She enjoys talking to him and kind of enjoys going out with him, but does that mean she likes him? Or does she like him only because he is super nice to her. Yes, he is just incredibly nice. Way over average, if you ask her. He is just the perfect gentlemen! Really really super nice. Oh yes, she thinks about him nearly all the time if she has nothing else on her mind. Pathetic?
4) He has everything a perfect guy has except for one thing. He does not give her security. Will he earn enough in the future to support her? She does not want a rich man. Neither does she want a genius, but will there always be rice on her table in the future? The future seems so bleak with him. On a lighter note, she knows her perception will change. In fact, she is positive, but it all boils down to him. He is smart, but he seems as though he does not want to be smart. Conflicting? Complexed? Just read on, it seems to get worse.
5) It is a difficult time for him, and she knows that. It is only natural for him to feel negative, but she hopes it is just temporary. She will try her best to help him in any way she can, but it is still up to him. It is certain that he is able to leave his valley of misery, but will he give himself that chance?
6) Health is wealth. She will not mind if he is handicapped or disabled provided he knows how to look after himself. However, he seems to be self-torturing. Yes, she agrees, he may be feeling down recently. It is normal. Just a difficult phase of life. It should get better, right? He will stop hurting himself soon, right? He will stop dwelling in self-pity, yes? She hopes shes is not having a fool's hope.
7) Yes, this might be the most ridiculous excuse of all, but it is important to her. She does not want him to become an excuse for poor results at the end. She knows, in fact she is 100% sure, that he will not affect her at all, but she also knows that if she does not do well, she may very well blame it on him even when he is totally innocent. She does not want to fall into that trap. If she does not do well, she only has herself to blame.
After reading this, he might totally ignore her. She knows the risks she is taking, exposing herself like that, but she does not want to hurt him. It is such a weird feeling, and all caused by her teacher's mini speech. She feels like waving a white flag and surrender. She is not cut out for love. Perhaps it's best that he gives up on her. If she is giving up on a perfect guy, which she thinks she is, so be it. She does not want him to feel sad again. Really.
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"12 is taking a really long time to get here," complained a friend. Glancing at her watch irritably, she looked up again and peered into the distant. "It's already 11 and there's still no sign of the bus!"
"Look! There's a bus up ahead," she said, smiling at her friend.
"Wait, no, it's 10."
After 5 minutes, there was still no sign of the desired bus.
"Don't worry! There's 2 buses coming!" she said excitably, feeling that after waiting so long, this has to be it.
"Yes, yes, it looks like 12," her friend commented beside her.
"No, wait. It looks like 14, but there's another bus behind," she said, squinting her eyes. "Wait, it seems like 14 again! One after another? What is this?" she remarked.
"Wait a minute, there's another double deck behind. It just has to be 12 this time," she said, feeling confident.
"You're never going to believe this, but i think it's 14 again," she said, feeling dejected.
"What?! Three 14s in one go?" her friend exclaimed in digust.
After another 5 minutes..
"I think there's a bus coming! Yes, this is 12. I'm positive!" she said, standing up.
"Finally! What if later the bus does not stop for us?" her friend asked, jokingly.
The bus drove into the bus bay, and without even looking at her outstretched hand, it drove right past her. There were too many people in the bus.
Their jaws were left hanging. They stared wide-eyed at the bus. Her mind went blank. Did that really happen? She just could not believe it. They waited for like, an eternity before the bus arrived and it just drove right by them. Just like that. Did someone curse her? She must be drenched in bad luck or something. They were silent for a long time before they went back to the bench and sat, resigned to their fate.
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It's a cruel world out there. Not everything is strawberries and butterflies.
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"Listen everyone. I feel that for girls, it is best to be attached only in the second year of university. Because by then, she would be exposed to the different kind of guys and she would also be wiser in choosing a guy. Also, by being attached now, she would be restricting herself. In future, if a better guy comes along, she would not know if she should stay, or leave..."
After constant pestering from her class for her form teacher to disclose all the juicy details about her first love, her form teacher finally relented. However, before coming to the main point, she lapsed into a motherly mode, advising people not to get attached at this tender age. It was repetitive and sounded a little naggy. What everyone wanted to hear was her life story, not her wise sayings. However, what she said does makes sense, she thought.
She definitely did not want to restrict herself. Most importantly, she does not want to hurt anyone. After thinking through, she realised there are numerous reasons why she does not want to commit herself.
1) She did not know if he really liked her, or he only liked her just because she was there for him during his lowest moment. It was really confusing. She was afraid it was only a short term kind of liking.
2) "What if i say i don't like you. What will you do?" she asked one day hesitantly. She knew this would hurt him, but she just had to know. Yes, she was being unthoughtful. She was mean. Even cruel perhaps, but she just had to know. She is terribly sorry for any harm done.
"If you don't like me, then i'll stop disturbing you," was the reply.
Does that mean he does not really like her? It was mind-boggling. So he's gonna give up like that? That means he does not like her, right? Or not.
3) She does not know if she likes him in the first place! Yes, she admits, she looks forward to his smses. She enjoys talking to him and kind of enjoys going out with him, but does that mean she likes him? Or does she like him only because he is super nice to her. Yes, he is just incredibly nice. Way over average, if you ask her. He is just the perfect gentlemen! Really really super nice. Oh yes, she thinks about him nearly all the time if she has nothing else on her mind. Pathetic?
4) He has everything a perfect guy has except for one thing. He does not give her security. Will he earn enough in the future to support her? She does not want a rich man. Neither does she want a genius, but will there always be rice on her table in the future? The future seems so bleak with him. On a lighter note, she knows her perception will change. In fact, she is positive, but it all boils down to him. He is smart, but he seems as though he does not want to be smart. Conflicting? Complexed? Just read on, it seems to get worse.
5) It is a difficult time for him, and she knows that. It is only natural for him to feel negative, but she hopes it is just temporary. She will try her best to help him in any way she can, but it is still up to him. It is certain that he is able to leave his valley of misery, but will he give himself that chance?
6) Health is wealth. She will not mind if he is handicapped or disabled provided he knows how to look after himself. However, he seems to be self-torturing. Yes, she agrees, he may be feeling down recently. It is normal. Just a difficult phase of life. It should get better, right? He will stop hurting himself soon, right? He will stop dwelling in self-pity, yes? She hopes shes is not having a fool's hope.
7) Yes, this might be the most ridiculous excuse of all, but it is important to her. She does not want him to become an excuse for poor results at the end. She knows, in fact she is 100% sure, that he will not affect her at all, but she also knows that if she does not do well, she may very well blame it on him even when he is totally innocent. She does not want to fall into that trap. If she does not do well, she only has herself to blame.
After reading this, he might totally ignore her. She knows the risks she is taking, exposing herself like that, but she does not want to hurt him. It is such a weird feeling, and all caused by her teacher's mini speech. She feels like waving a white flag and surrender. She is not cut out for love. Perhaps it's best that he gives up on her. If she is giving up on a perfect guy, which she thinks she is, so be it. She does not want him to feel sad again. Really.
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"12 is taking a really long time to get here," complained a friend. Glancing at her watch irritably, she looked up again and peered into the distant. "It's already 11 and there's still no sign of the bus!"
"Look! There's a bus up ahead," she said, smiling at her friend.
"Wait, no, it's 10."
After 5 minutes, there was still no sign of the desired bus.
"Don't worry! There's 2 buses coming!" she said excitably, feeling that after waiting so long, this has to be it.
"Yes, yes, it looks like 12," her friend commented beside her.
"No, wait. It looks like 14, but there's another bus behind," she said, squinting her eyes. "Wait, it seems like 14 again! One after another? What is this?" she remarked.
"Wait a minute, there's another double deck behind. It just has to be 12 this time," she said, feeling confident.
"You're never going to believe this, but i think it's 14 again," she said, feeling dejected.
"What?! Three 14s in one go?" her friend exclaimed in digust.
After another 5 minutes..
"I think there's a bus coming! Yes, this is 12. I'm positive!" she said, standing up.
"Finally! What if later the bus does not stop for us?" her friend asked, jokingly.
The bus drove into the bus bay, and without even looking at her outstretched hand, it drove right past her. There were too many people in the bus.
Their jaws were left hanging. They stared wide-eyed at the bus. Her mind went blank. Did that really happen? She just could not believe it. They waited for like, an eternity before the bus arrived and it just drove right by them. Just like that. Did someone curse her? She must be drenched in bad luck or something. They were silent for a long time before they went back to the bench and sat, resigned to their fate.
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It's a cruel world out there. Not everything is strawberries and butterflies.
The stars twinkled on Faith @ 12:07 AM::
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