This is my third entry I write from hall, I think. =P
Alright!! I’m now in Yuko’s room. Haha! Thanks a lot yuko for allowing me to bunk in your room. Really sorry if I keep disturbing you! =X Oops! Haha!
Anyway, I’m now back in hall for Concert meeting! O.O I am so excited for next year’s concert! I really really hope that it’ll turn out great!! Do come for concert next year, yeah? I can only assure you that it won’t be let down! =D
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I did the most ridiculous thing on Monday!
Woke up bright and early on Monday and headed down to CGH. Thereafter, rushed back home, packed my bags, and then rushed down for piano.
Being my first attempt to get there via public transport, I am clueless as to how to make my way there. My dad told me to take the same buses I take to work one year ago. So, okay. I took those buses, only to realize that it will not take me to my desired destination! AHH!! I quickly alighted and asked my teacher for directions. It was only then that I found out that I had a direct bus from my house all the way to her house!!
Silly me, should have asked my teacher right from the start! Instead of one bus, I ended up taking 3 buses!! Imagine the bus fare!! Zzz.. Oh well!
At least now I know how to get to her house! =D
After piano, I had to rush back to hall for concert meeting! Oops! I ended up being late since I was late for my piano lesson as well.
Discussion was long, long, long, but it was what we had to do, and I don’t think any of us are complaining much! =P
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It’s been more than a week since I’m back in hall! I’m now writing from my own room, instead of Yuko’s! Thanks again Yuko!!
Float has now started, and going into day 5 today. I wouldn’t say float is tiring, but I guess it is draining having to constantly generate ideas.
You know the feeling you have, of wanting to contribute, yet somehow have no idea how? Well, float is inducing a lot of those kinds of feeling in me, and it definitely is not helping much! I sometimes hate my stupid brain for not having any amount of “creative juices” stored. Rather than part of the team, I feel as though I make up the NUMBERS of the team, ‘cause I really do not see how I have contributed as opposed to the rest of the team members.
I feel that sometimes I might be a burden to the team ‘cause I do not really know how things work, and my mind is like super slow, and stupid, and idiotic, and yeah, useless. I have most probably disappointed the float team, and not to mention myself. Zzz.. That’s what I have been doing a lot lately! =[
I know I’m supposed to work on this ‘useless’ aspect of mine, but sometimes it just makes things worse. It’s like trying to force something out of nothing, and despite all the efforts, and still nothing is churned out, this heavy, sinking feelings starts to set in!!
I’m really sorry to the float team, but nevertheless, I shall keep doing my best, and pray hard that I do not burn out even before float is over. I really really hope that one day, I will become part of the team rather than a burden to them. ^.^
Jiayou!
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I’m quite sorry to Eileen and Kai, for having to work so hard, on top of RHOC which I know is equally as draining, if not more. I hope things will get better, but for now, let’s hang in there okay!! ^.^
I’m also so so sorry to the concert team, for delaying the script, for demanding so much, for making things rather difficult! I’m really sorry!! We shall try to work round the script such that it does not get so tedious, but for now, just ganbatte!!
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I know I should not be saying so many sorries, and I know most of you hate me for saying the word ‘sorry’, but.. I just cannot help it. I feel so indebted to so many people, not to mention disappointing them. It’s quite torturous, but I have no idea why I feel this way!! HELP!!
Oh, and the reality of my results has just whacked, smacked, slammed right into my face with all the talks of results during float. Zzz.. Doesn’t really help, does it?
Alright, I’ll have to rush for float now!
All the best to all how are busy with their own commitments. If the going gets tough, hang in there!! ^.^
Alright!! I’m now in Yuko’s room. Haha! Thanks a lot yuko for allowing me to bunk in your room. Really sorry if I keep disturbing you! =X Oops! Haha!
Anyway, I’m now back in hall for Concert meeting! O.O I am so excited for next year’s concert! I really really hope that it’ll turn out great!! Do come for concert next year, yeah? I can only assure you that it won’t be let down! =D
I did the most ridiculous thing on Monday!
Woke up bright and early on Monday and headed down to CGH. Thereafter, rushed back home, packed my bags, and then rushed down for piano.
Being my first attempt to get there via public transport, I am clueless as to how to make my way there. My dad told me to take the same buses I take to work one year ago. So, okay. I took those buses, only to realize that it will not take me to my desired destination! AHH!! I quickly alighted and asked my teacher for directions. It was only then that I found out that I had a direct bus from my house all the way to her house!!
Silly me, should have asked my teacher right from the start! Instead of one bus, I ended up taking 3 buses!! Imagine the bus fare!! Zzz.. Oh well!
At least now I know how to get to her house! =D
After piano, I had to rush back to hall for concert meeting! Oops! I ended up being late since I was late for my piano lesson as well.
Discussion was long, long, long, but it was what we had to do, and I don’t think any of us are complaining much! =P
It’s been more than a week since I’m back in hall! I’m now writing from my own room, instead of Yuko’s! Thanks again Yuko!!
Float has now started, and going into day 5 today. I wouldn’t say float is tiring, but I guess it is draining having to constantly generate ideas.
You know the feeling you have, of wanting to contribute, yet somehow have no idea how? Well, float is inducing a lot of those kinds of feeling in me, and it definitely is not helping much! I sometimes hate my stupid brain for not having any amount of “creative juices” stored. Rather than part of the team, I feel as though I make up the NUMBERS of the team, ‘cause I really do not see how I have contributed as opposed to the rest of the team members.
I feel that sometimes I might be a burden to the team ‘cause I do not really know how things work, and my mind is like super slow, and stupid, and idiotic, and yeah, useless. I have most probably disappointed the float team, and not to mention myself. Zzz.. That’s what I have been doing a lot lately! =[
I know I’m supposed to work on this ‘useless’ aspect of mine, but sometimes it just makes things worse. It’s like trying to force something out of nothing, and despite all the efforts, and still nothing is churned out, this heavy, sinking feelings starts to set in!!
I’m really sorry to the float team, but nevertheless, I shall keep doing my best, and pray hard that I do not burn out even before float is over. I really really hope that one day, I will become part of the team rather than a burden to them. ^.^
Jiayou!
I’m quite sorry to Eileen and Kai, for having to work so hard, on top of RHOC which I know is equally as draining, if not more. I hope things will get better, but for now, let’s hang in there okay!! ^.^
I’m also so so sorry to the concert team, for delaying the script, for demanding so much, for making things rather difficult! I’m really sorry!! We shall try to work round the script such that it does not get so tedious, but for now, just ganbatte!!
I know I should not be saying so many sorries, and I know most of you hate me for saying the word ‘sorry’, but.. I just cannot help it. I feel so indebted to so many people, not to mention disappointing them. It’s quite torturous, but I have no idea why I feel this way!! HELP!!
Oh, and the reality of my results has just whacked, smacked, slammed right into my face with all the talks of results during float. Zzz.. Doesn’t really help, does it?
Alright, I’ll have to rush for float now!
All the best to all how are busy with their own commitments. If the going gets tough, hang in there!! ^.^
The stars twinkled on Faith @ 12:04 PM::
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