"Tomorrow marks the start..."

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And so tomorrow marks the beginning of the EXAMS!! O.O
After 5 semesters, this semester being my 6th, I'm still apprehensive and jittery when it comes to exams. Moreover, being in pharmacy, with at least 2 tests per week since week 4, you'ld thought I'll be used to it by now. BUT NO! Here I am, still panicking, but yet lacking the motivation to push on! Contradicting? Yes, I know. What to do? My heart likes to play with brain.

And, what's worse is, I eat so much more during the exams! T.T Can I cry? Munch Munch, Munch!! Hmmm..

Anyway, during those day dreaming periods of studying (yes, I'm sorry to say, I day dream ALOT), I've decided that growing up = knowing more things, and that's also = to knowing more harsh truths about the reality of life, but that's not the reason to be cynical about it, and neither should one pour cold water all over one who hasn't glimpsed the truth of it all.

I mean, it's not good to live in a idealistic fantastical world, but neither is it to live in a world that's full of hate and denial, and then trying to drag everyone else into it as well. Perhaps it's good sometimes, that one doesn't know the truth. Hope is a wonderful thing. Remind them to expect the worst, but yet continue to encourage, that's what I think is worthy of an applause.

Many a times I have seen people who merely remind others to expect the worst, and stop at there, which unfortunately, I feel is rather depressing. Haha. I'm sorry, I'm just idealistic, and I do acknowledge that it's a flaw. =X I just don't see why someone would keep reminding others about how practical everything is, and be so cynical about everything. On the other hand, I think there has to be a fine balance between both. To remind about the pitfalls, but Yet to ENCOURAGE at the same time.

Okays. I feel so idealistic. HAha!

Oh, and another idealistic way of thinking:

"If you can't change anything,
Accept who you are,
Accept your forced circumstances,
Stop asking Why,
And perhaps then,
Will one be free of their
Entangled emotions."

And I do NOT mean accept and just do nothing. I mean accept, and stop moaning or drowning in sorrows. Instead, go out there and change aspects that you can change. That's something my boyfriend taught me. =) With that, life's a little less angry, a little less sorrowful, and perhaps a little more satisfying.

And on an ending note, I shall work to be a better girlfriend. Hee!!

Cheers to all with exams, while I return to my food. Oops. I mean, my notes. =X

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"WhoooooooOOOOOOOOOooosh!!"