"A winner never quits,
and a quitter never wins."

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Went prawning during the holidays!












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"Not giving up is half the battle won."

.. I have so much explaining to do to my parents now ..

zZz.

So tired.

Q: So he's not coming today?
A: No

Q: Did he say why?
A: He's relatives are visiting him.

Q: Why didn't he tell us earlier?
A: IT was unexpected.

Q: But does he know that he did tell us that he is coming?
A: Yeah.

Q: Do you love him more or the other way round?
A: Don't know.

Q: Why does he like you?
A: Don't know.

Q: Does he always go back on his words?
A: Don't know.

Q: Why everything also don't know?!
A: ...

Zzz.

Chinese New Year is boring!!

And if anyone else claims I have no life, I am so going to explode in their face.

Why don't you try having a small family?!
Why don't you try having nothing to do, while all your other relatives are out vising other relatives, but you have none left to vist?!
Why don't you try staying at home for hours and hours at hand, with nothing to do, but WAIT for other people to finish visiting?

If anyone dares complain that I waste my time mapling during Chinese New Year, I am so going to scream.

It beats lounging in front of the TV for 6 hours in a row okay.
At least there are people to talk to in maple.

GRrr..

"Another new beginning?"

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I feel weird.
Somehow, I feel weird.

Funny.
Weird.

Whichever.
Don't really know what I should be doing.

Not really looking forward to tomorrow either, nor the year to come.

What's the difference?

Who cares?

Happy Lunar New Year, guys! ^.^

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"No longer that excited.."

"Smile,
for everything starts with a smile.
^.^"

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"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

How true. My dad has supported me in nearly everything I did.

During Rendezvous, my dad was the only one who came.
While learning to drive, he accompanied me for all my lessons.
He drove me to all my piano examinations.
He took leave during my O levels, so to send me to school on time.
He was there when I took my swimming survival test.
He was there for all my performance - from primary school, secondary school, all the way till JC.

I love my dad.
He was always there for me.

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I drove him home!
And yes, he says my driving is ATROCIOUS!
Zzz.
Still, I drove him home!
Muahahaha!

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Swimming was satisfying!
I finally surpassed my own record!
Finally!
Maybe it's cause someone made a special appearance?
HAHA!

Nonetheless, I shall keep improving, yeah? HEhe!

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Pharmacy is like, HORRIBLE!
The lecturers seem to be rambling on and on in a foreign langugage!

Better revise early.
And the projects!! They are flowing in, even before the first week ends!!
YIKES!

I've already been to lab, on the first week!
And tutorial starts next week!
Meeks!

Jiayou, everyone!! =)

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"Happiness is a choice"

I didn't manage to get my bubble tea, 'cause the shop was closed by the time I got there! >.<

But, it's okie! I got a sip out of Yuko's Bubble tea!! Hehe! Thanks, Yuko!^.^

I suddenly have the urge to thank people!!

Yuko! You are really a great friend! =) Haha!
Thanks for always being there for me!! ^.^
You do not know, but sometimes when i'm down, and I talk to you - even if it's unrelated stuffs or crap - I feel a lot better. Your confidence do rub off people you know! Haha!

And TX, thanks thanks a lot for the sms-es and for all your guidance and advices. =) Jiayou with everything!

And to you! Haha! Thanks thanks for EVERYTHING! Even when I doubted you, you still held on. Thanks a lot. Although I know I have made you irritated and frustrated on countless occassions!! Thanks a lot for being so patient. =)

Okies, better get on with my dinner now! Haha! ^.^

"To not believe in yourself, is half the battle lost."

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Had a super lousy training.
Always clocking in last. Slow.
To make matters worse, seeing that there are only 3 swimmers, the guy is just always talking to the other girl, even when it comes to pointers.
I feel so REDUNDANT!

Maybe it's because I swim too slow for them to care. After all, it's TOO SLOW!!

Grr.. Jiayou, Clara.

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Gonna get myself a Bubble Tea to cheer up!

You can do it, Clara!

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Wondering when's the last time someone said, "Well Done, Clara."

Importance.

I realised that everyone would want to feel important in some way or another. Or at least, useful. No one would want to feel worthlesss or useless.

Everyone loves the feeling of being important, of being wanted, of being useful.

Just how will someone be able to feel that way?

So you say, if that person makes you feel important, that person might just be the right one?

But, you have also forgotten that something once important may be deemed redundant once obtained. Isn't that human nature?

When something isn't obtainable, it's like the most imporant thing. You try means and ways to get it. Everything. You just know that you have to have it! It's important, you tell yourself! IMPORTANT!

Yet, once obtained, it's no longer important. Why would it be? You no longer have to fight for it. IT's already yours isn't it?

Then again, there are some things that may not be important, but yet useful at some point. In economic terms, it is a luxury good. In this case, it does not matter if you own it, but if you do, kudos to you! Still, if it were to disappear one day, perhaps you'll be sad. After all, you have gotten used to its presence, but after some time, I guess you will just forget about it.

I never forget though.

Am I a luxury good?

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My dad was rattling on and on about my friend again. I got so irritated that I turned to him, looked him straight in the eye and told him, "Daddy, if you don't stop talking, I will stop talking to you."

My dad obviously found it amusing and laughed. At the sight of him laughing, I can't help but laugh as well. I think he finds me amusing, especially the way I defend.

I can't help but admire the patience in my dad. No matter how moody I am, it matters not if he knows why I'm sad or upset. He just knows how to make me smile again. And if he knows I'm upset because of him, whether it's my fault or not, he'll pacify me, no matter what - even if I was clearly in the wrong; even when it is obvious that I was at fault.

I guess I'm just a spoiled girl - one who needs to be pampered; to be pacified.

>.<

I'm basking in the love of my parents that I know I do not deserve, but didn't pastor once said, don't deem yourself undeserving? It's not up to us to decide.

I guess the upbringing of someone really determines the outcome. My hands were held for as long as I can remember, and they are still being held. Maybe that's why I'm so weak, for I always know that there's someone to depend on.

But, I do know that it'll not be held forever.

And, I'm so so scared.

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If someone says nothing, how will one know how that someone is feeling or thinking?
What actually goes on in someone's mind when someone is silent?

I'm curious 'cause I'm troubled and lost.
I do not know what to do.

How do you know if someone is irritated or angry with you?
What do you do if someone is irritated or angry with you nearly all the time?
How do you prevent irritancy from developing in people?

It's so hard to earn that smile.

"Off with old, and on with the new!!"

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Have a merry new year!!

2008 has been rather a trying year, but on retrospect, I would say that it was a good year. Although not everything went well, and there were its ups and downs, I have not regretted all the things that I have embarked on.

2009 will be even better!!

Tangible things I wanna achieve:

1. Get at least 3 As in one semester!! (Yeah, I know it sounds like all I care are grades, but I just wanna work towards this. It's important regardless how people say grades don't matter. When it comes to reality, grades DO matter no matter how otherwise people try to impress upon.)

2. To attempt dancing!! (Sounds silly, but this has been on my list for the past 12 years! Geez.)

3. Obtain my piano diploma!

4. Perfect my guitar skills?

5. Lose 3 kg? Haha!

Intangible things I wanna achieve:

1. Work on my relationship with friends. Spend more time with them. Share more.

2. Love more.

3. Be more considerate. Be more patient. Be more understanding.

4. Whine less. Dwell less in self-pity.

5. Work on my confidence level!! (It's now dreadfully low!!)

6. Make a difference in lives of others. Focus on others!! Not Me, Myself or I!

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New year's eve was a rather eventful one.
In the afternoon, went for a secondary school gathering at one of my friend's house. It was somewhat awkward considering that most of us have not seen each other for like 4 years!! Hmmm.. wonder how it'll be like if it were another 4 years down the road and the girls are already woking!! Haha!!

Thereafter, went for a family dinner at my cousin's house. Yum yum!!

And then, at 10pm, we headed to my cousin's new apartment which is supposedly the highlight of the day!! My cousin's new apartment is situated right at the heart of the city at raffles place and the building has 69 storeys!! It was amazing!! My cousin's apartment is only on the 21st storey though, but nevertheless, the sight was wonderful!!



Nice view right? It faces the Marina Floating Platform!! Too bad my camera isn't that good!! But we did take a few amazing shots with dad's ultra wonderful camera!! Shall upload those pictures soon! You'll be able to note the difference!!




There were so many people!! I can't believe how people are willing to shove and squeeze their way through just to get a good view of the fireworks!! I guess the laugher shared simply erases all irritance and fosters stronger friendship! -envious-






And the fireworks!! Highlight of the night!! =)



And the HUGE crowd when the fireworks are over!!





Random pictures we took at the apartment!

Overall, we had to wait like nearly 40 minutes for the elevator since they had to serve like 69 floors? And being a festive season and all, equipped with fireworks and the gift of a picturesque view of the fireworks, everyone invited friends over!! Haha!! I totally do not regret though!

Have merry new year everyone!! =D

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"Forget all defeats, forget all conflicts.
Forget all disappointments, and forget all victories."